senja keempat.

senja pertama, aku mengantarmu hingga dermaga,
dan berbalik pulang sebelum jangkar ditarik.

senja kedua, aku terbang melintasi aurora,
lalu berkereta, melihat matahari berkejaran dengan kabel listrik.

senja ketiga, amarah memaksa kita berjalan dalam diam, berdua
hingga salju memaksa kita berbagi bangku halte yang sempit dan tak henti berderik.

senja keempat, ...
senja keempat kupotong kecil-kecil saat ia masih nila,
kubagi sama rata ke dalam seribu kotak,
kuhanyutkan mereka kembali satu-satu pada kali pukul tiga sore, dengan kamu yang tersenyum saja di atas batu di sampingku,

agar mereka nanti tiba tepat waktu : sebelum senja sempat mencari keping-kepingnya yang hilang kita curi, empat senja yang lalu.

hujan.

pada payung-payung yang terbuka,
di atasnya adalah lantai dansa para hujan yang mencari-cari kekasihnya.

mereka bertemu di tengah riuh,
saling bertukar senyum dengan berselancar,
lalu menghangatkan diri dalam tanah,
hingga akhirnya ada cium selamat tinggal, pada pagi di atas daun,
tepat sebelum beranjak menuju langit hari.

pada payung-payung yang terbuka,
ada kesendirian yang berteduh, dari hujan yang (didengarnya) saling bercinta.

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selamat hari Joker!
(Joker berwarna, atau Joker hitam putih?)

dan saya masih mencari-cari, kapankah hari Joker kedua itu sebenarnya.

dan di tengah-tengahnya saya merasa dunia sedang berkomplot menyuruh saya untuk melepaskan apa-apa yang memang sedari awal tidak pernah bisa saya genggam. dia juga bilang supaya saya berhenti menjadi hantu bagi diri saya sendiri, menghentikannya bergentayangan dalam pikiran maupun hati saya.

karena sebelum proses, segala sesuatunya adalah pilihan. tidak lebih, tidak kurang.


mudah-mudahan hari Joker berikutnya bisa saya rayakan berempat, masing-masing dengan tigabelas kartu di tangan, dan dua joker yang hilang. mungkin karena sudah ada gantinya : cinta dan percaya.



.
harus membaca sekali lagi : Dunia Sophie, Misteri Soliter, dan Perpustakaan Ajaib Bibbi Bokken; padahal Maya saja masih belum selesai.

bad boy.

Listening their music now, and then go back a little from when they've just started, I must say they're becoming artists, not mere idols. They're just too good (as well as uniquely too individualistic)  to be called a boyband (for now). I've just listened to the whole album and did not regret for having it pre-ordered. The album is just worth listening. Honestly it's rather beyond my expectation nor prediction. Well, there's a song which I don't really into it, though, but overall I heart it, much! Too much I don't really care about how they looked like nor how their style is anymore. It's enough that I could smile over the music for an overflowing sincerity and honesty those made the language difference no longer become a matter.

Okay. I'm starting to get biased.
Gotta stop.

Well, one more thing anyway : for you your taste, for me my taste ;)

. . .
ps : Songs from their latest album were mostly to be listed in my "songs from back then" playlist :)

period.

be seeing it with binocular : 
a treeless hill and a loveless senses. 


should the distance fitted to lenses :
and the sound of blizzard first arrived at early spring.


while the picture lasted as long as your stare,
the sight of scenery was stored at back of your head.


and for a repetitive pain killing,
(which were none worked) the anesthetics were there for one simple reason.

nadi.

jantung redamkan detaknya,
darah putihkan merahnya.

biru-biru mengucur deras dalam diri,
mengikat pergelangan dengan mimpi-mimpi yang jadi temali.

nadi bercinta dengan kehidupan yang tak berhenti lahir,
mencuri darinya nafas segar-segar.


lalu terlupakan : seonggok jiwa pemutus nadi hati,
dewa kematian bertudung putih berpedang jeri.

bejana.

sudah siang.
air mata yang tertampung sejak tiga hari lalu menguaplah.

sudah tiga hari,
waktunya memaafkan mungkin...
meninggalkan cincin kebesaran berbentuk matahari pada dasar bejana..
membakarnya, hingga tak sempat pecah berkeping.

sudah malam.
bicaraku pun tersendat air mata yang tertelan.

sudah tujuh minggu,
waktunya menguak tirai mungkin...
mengintip matahari sungguhan..
yang Tuhan bilang sudah rindu mati padaku, pada "selamat pagi" dariku tepatnya.

sudah pagi.
ternyata Tuhan tak kunjung ambil ingatanku.

.
mudah-mudahan melupakanmu tidak membuatNya mengangkat bahu.

addictive blue.

Released February 22th, 2012 at 00.00 South Korea's Time, the viewer count on Youtube is now 7,562,959 with audience coverage on almost all over the globe, and still counting, for sure, plus a Silver Medal for Recently Most Popular Video and a Gold Medal for Trending Video. While in my playlist, the play count for the song has reached 530 for its repetitive plays starting from the release time until now, along with two other songs' teasers. It's just addictive, like a never ending cups of black coffee. I can't stop listening to it, and will never get enough of it, not until I'm too full and having an overflow of it in my mind.

It's just addictive, like a limitless of blue, both beyond and under.

sunday zodiac signing.

#Aries have their own definition of friendship which doesn't include much touchy-feely sentiment,or constantly being in each other's hair.
-- This' quite explain the way I tend to be solitaire, but I don't mind at all seeing such on dramas, novels, or comics. I see that kind of friendship is actually wonderful, yet it's just not my kind to have. And it took me some time to accept that.


An #Aries INSTANT STRESS-BUSTER: A long drive. It's an easy way to feel that at least for this moment, you'll in control of SOMETHING.
-- This is the very reason I need to learn how to drive a car. I mean really drive, bravely drive in the middle of Bandung's crazy traffic. Gosh, I think I'm a little to late for it, no? 


#Aries prefer to face the truth of something, deal with it, and move on.
-- Is something I'm still currently working on, especially the last one.


Arguing with an #Aries is like arguing with somebody that doesn't even care about the topic, they just argue for the sake of it.
-- LOL! This is somewhat true :) Will try to fix it ;)


#Aries, #Cancer, #Libra, and #Capricorn usually responds to conflict with a bold, decisive, and instinctive action.
-- Well, I enjoy decision making, as well as enjoying it when later I found out it was a wrong one. As for me, decision making is about making decision, not about making "the right" decision". And yes, this is due to my tendency to make decisions intuitively, not logically - well, even though most people around me often mistook that I'd only do analytic thinking rather than sensing the feeling.


The Behavior of an #Aries is Sensitive, mostly to their own needs, rarely to the needs of others.
-- I admit that my strongest weakness, aside from any random fear I have, is being egocentric.


Traveling Style by an #Aries: When you travel, you literally want to see a whole different world.
-- See the magic of perspective! With my own eyes.


As an #Aries you are certain and confident when you choose to love someone.
-- That's why I no move on move on >.<


As an #Aries Your ideal partner: Someone stylish, attractive, and fit who can keep you going.
-- Come to think of it, almost all of my past crushes had their distinctive style, which any of it I considered as stylish, and really were attractive in their own different way. It's just seem I'm not (stylish enough to) fit in any of them ;p


Shopping Style by an #Aries: An Aries is like a hunter with a mission; in and out in a hurry; good intuition. They do better shopping alone.
-- Window shopping is window shopping. The shopping itself is another different thing.


Source : #Aries from ZodiactFacts


. . .


Ok! Enough having a short fun for today.

berhitung adalah pekerjaan menyebalkan dan memusingkan, apalagi jika yang dihitung adalah kebahagiaan.

- pernah menjadi penggemar berat mata pelajaran akuntansi dan penikmat mata kuliah kalkulus (walaupun nggak pernah sampai dapat nilai A)


#yalagian #bahagiakokdihitung #bahagiatuhdirasa #kokinitumblrpindahkesini