5 | distance.

the safest distance is, indeed, when you're try saying "i love you", he's (still) not listening.

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as for me, distance is principal. it is what makes the fire warm, the ice cold, the love desired, the jealousy hurts, the in between spaces worth the walk, the time worth spending. it also takes a distance to muster up all the courage within myself, to convey what's not mine to begin with.

while speaking of the distance itself, exactly like time, it is somewhat relative. indefinite. that's why i found it scary. focusing on the term of safest distance, it could be literally shouting loud the i love you while he's literally miles away or literally whispered it, inside your heart, to add, while he's literally holding your hand besides you. at both set, he won't bother to listen, or would he? well, unless there's an imaginary secret tunnel of alienated words only both of us understand connecting our minds. but that's not it.

certain distance gave me certain feelings of falling in love, being loved in return, or even falling out of it. it gave me room for sanity, despite how hard i fell or how deep i was hurt. distance is a big white screen to check whether that thing i thought i'm having was a real thing or it's just one scary illusion.

as you might know, love is universal. but how each one of us interpret it, is not. basically the same for all other universal things. so, distance, just in case. not for calculation nor measurement. but to seemingly feel.