feels like, in all of sudden, in a mood for this song.
i've just found out that i did too much things those now slowly causing damage to myself. i really don't know whether i could fix them all or not, but am trying. maybe must do it harder and harder, and of course one at a time. well, maybe this is another different road towards patience, since i usually want things to be all done in one time, not that in short-cut-kind-of-way but rather that in super-flash-kind-of-way. now i arrived in a point that there's no other way than keep calm and keep fixing things. that's why nowadays every time i meet the term "keep calm", i do keep calm. because i am fully aware that panicking things will only worsen the damage.
so, i'm sending this message to the universe, by keeping some distance to it (well, if it feels so, anyway), "please, don't mess with me. not with my mind, not with my ego, and at most not with my heart. unless, of course, you'd love to clean the impact."
there's no meaning of feeling comfortable if it's, in return, gives you inconvenience. and i could never apologies enough to myself.