berhitung adalah pekerjaan menyebalkan dan memusingkan, apalagi jika yang dihitung adalah kebahagiaan.

- pernah menjadi penggemar berat mata pelajaran akuntansi dan penikmat mata kuliah kalkulus (walaupun nggak pernah sampai dapat nilai A)


#yalagian #bahagiakokdihitung #bahagiatuhdirasa #kokinitumblrpindahkesini

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jika air mata adalah kata-kata,
yang derasnya terperas habis oleh serupa pedih,

aku ingin bertanya satu saja :
Tuhan, bosankah Kau melihatku dengan mudah mengalirkannya?


jika senyum tertinggal adalah cendera mata,
yang tertinggal oleh angin penyaput kelabu,

aku ingin meminta satu saja :
sunggingkanlah ia lebih banyak lagi padaku, Tuhan...

jurusan vs keahlian, dalam kelakar

Melihat linimasa twitter hari ini yang sepertinya cukup heboh dengan "Jurusan : ... Keahlian : ..." dikaitkan dengan urusan percintaan, saya jadi tidak tahan untuk tidak menuliskan ini :

Jurusan : Perancangan Lanskap. Keahlian : Membuat sistem percintaan dengan matriks mimpi yang masih buram, patch yang harus diambil dari masa depan dengan komposisi bidang hijau yang harus dicuri lihat dari daftar di tangan Tuhan, dan koridor penghubung yang tersembunyi di balik semak-semak.

#pret #panjangkalipun #itulebihdari140karakterwoi 




Atau ini :

Jurusan: Lanskap. Keahlian: menanam benih2 cinta di halaman hatimu. *nanem pohon di halaman rumah kali* *terus kapan bisa foto keluarga di bawahnya?*

#krik #nggakbakatngegombalemang 

blue.

Yes. I'm officially in love with this group. And it's not because I love blue, both as word and color, that I too love their newest single entitled "Blue". I can't find any of their past songs which the music were similar to this one, as for the mood it brought somehow reminds me of those came by listening to "Haru Haru", mixed with "Tell Me Good Bye" and "Koe wo Kikasete". Well, this is not the point though. I must say, "Blue" stands for itself :)

Another thing to love is their singing, what else is there. Unlike their previous songs, I think "Blue" has let them to sing their warmest voice out. Honestly I'm a little bit surprise hearing it, mostly at Seungri's singing that became much more steady. GD's rap sounded to held back so much emotion, while TOP's rap was getting softer than those he's usually done before. Daesung's voice is the strongest as usual, but there's something different on his way of singing, I can't tell exactly what it is. And Taeyang, this time I don't find his voice as dominating as I usually feel whenever I listen to their songs. Well, all I wanna say is that this time I feel all of their voices blend perfectly each other as well as with the music.

As for the MV, honestly I was shocked when seeing leaked photos of their  MV making in NY. The outfits and the style are actually not those I would normally like to see. But, surprisingly the MV turns out super fine. I never thought they would wrap it up like that, a rebellious-look style as that in "Haru Haru" MV presented elegantly as that in "Love Song" MV. I definitely loving it! *okay, I might have exaggerating* Seeing the MV over and over again, I'm struck with GD's first part followed with Daesung's part. And to think that this song is about loneliness, this MV delivered the message well enough. It's not the bright-sky-type-of-blue, but more the-deep-ocean-type one.


Can't wait for their complete Mini Album to be released in February the 29th ;)
Meanwhile, just enjoy the song in this beautiful MV on their Youtube chanel and check out the translation of its lyrics here in Soompi.

It's bluetiful :)

Welcome back BIGBANG! It's good to have all the five member stay together :)

from east to west.

Today i watched the 17th episode of HIMYM series season 7. It's when Ted asked Robin, "Do you love me?" and Robin replied, after some awkward pause, "No", I realized a thing.


Before any other journey I'd love to make in the name of move on, of which I must do it perfectly, first of all I need to go the east. Meet him, and tell him in person : "You knew I love you, right?" But I won't ask such tricky question as, "Did you ever love me?" I want to completely move on, don't I? There's no necessary point anymore in knowing the answer, for now -- well, it would be completely different if I were to do it back in 2007, which thankfully I did not --. 


I just want to end every smallest bit of my heart from keep running around him. Him. A man I've always wished  -- not for dating me, but -- to marry me, to be the first member of my own little family, to be a father of a baby boy and a baby girl I've always wished to have one day -- supposedly these days --.


By doing so, then should I be able to seek another him. The real him. A man whose name is literally written besides mine on God's secret journal. 


. . .
This note is a fictional work. To be elaborated later.

aku ingin bercerita : hanya pada dunia. karena ia mendengarkan, bukan menebaknya.

complicated.

happiness is simple.

so simple that nobody else but ourselves would ever understand,
so simple that only in on our own consciousness we know happiness doesn't need to be understood.


(what each of us called) happiness is simple. so simple that the world sees us as complicated creature.

[music] feist - intuition (piano version).

today my twitter timeline is quite full off people talking about Feist. a little i know about her through her song "inside and out" which was my friend's selection to be compiled in a cd as our graduation souvenir back then. the song sounds nice, yet her songs were not really in my playlist. 

apparently today she did a live performance in jakarta. am not going of course. one of my fellow whose timeline i follow (whom i'm pretty sure was attending the performance) just post a comment stating that she sang (finally) her song called "intuition", a mellow-ballad song, according to him. have a liking toward the word 'intuition' itself, plus my usual curiosity-in-a-sudden, i browsed the song on youtube, found the song and not really into it, and found its piano version.

i heart it. 

just like my fellow has said, a mellow-ballad. five times replaying it just set the mood right : mellow. i have to get out of here, as soon as it might possible...

things to pray for, today.

dear God,

i shall pray for Your kindness to remind me whenever i put things only within the reach of my own perspective, as it might be wrong no matter how much i insist that it's right, that i should place it on bigger framework instead.

i shall pray for Your guidance not to let me misread any phenomena, as it might be a mere mirage.

and i too shall wish for a bigger heart and a peaceful mind.

therefore i wouldn't make any decision which could bring harm instead of bliss.


aaamiiin to that. and a thank You is never enough.

#

Tuhan pun terjepit logika benar dan salah makhluk-makhluk yang lahir dari tangan-tangannya,
padahal sedari awal sudah Ia berikan sedikit ruang, untuk sedikit diriNya, di dalam makhluk-makhlukNya.

Sedang Ia sendiri bukanlah semata logika,
yang bisa dikenal sebatas paham, namun cukup sampai pada yakin.

Lalu siapa yang bisa pertanyakan, "bagaimana dengan rasa?"
Rasa, anugrah yang menjadi amanah setiap mereka yang lahir atas ketetapanNya,
tapi mungkin menjadi saru ketika ia melebur dengan sang yakin.

Abu-abu ada karena ada hitam juga putih,
di antara punggung-punggung yang beradu ada pedang bermata dua.

.

untukmu yakinmu, untukku yakinku.
dan tak ada kebenaran yang lebih sejati selain dari yang tertulis dalam kitab rahasia pada pelukanNya.