it's a clean start.

forgiving. accepting things out of my power to control. 

the academic career path. academic writing practices. 

the PhD plan.

scrap-booking : documenting - clean the mess. 

more exercises, more journal making. 

and start looking, in a free-from-pressure way.

Seattle / Berkeley / Edinburgh / Newcastle / Sheffield.

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this' not an easy year, anyway

midnight.

by Adhitia Sofyan


Here today gone tomorrow
Washed away all my sorrow
There will be a time when I will come and find you again.

Leave the light on your window
I just might try to follow
There will be a time when I will finally find you

But midnight close my eyes I’m tired I’m fading
I am only human, Searching
Places I wont go where your name are written
We’re all only human, faking

Stay a while fill my hollow
Till the sky turns to yellow
There will be a time when I will come and find you again.

See the time has gone too narrow
They’ll be things you can’t borrow
There will be the day when I will finally find you

. . .

Saya suka sekali lagu ini. Suka. Suka. Suka. Sekali.

untuk bapak tercinta.

dan semua ayah hebat di dunia.

Happy Father's Day!

say you love me - simply red

one of my most favorite songs. filed under "lullaby".

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dear stranger, please come anytime but not now, would you?

you know, among the absolute don't(s) when you're (feeling) lonely...

is to fall in love.

The PhD Movie

PHD Movie Trailer from PHD Comics on Vimeo.

Let's finish this thesis! 

Let's (soon) make a proposal for the PhD program I desire! 

(yea, there's already one or two on your my box, there I admit it ;p)

(of course while waiting some other proposal to be popped out *rolling eyes*)

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ps 1 : dear me, you will definitely finish your thesis, but not if you kept torturing your own focus.

and not as long as you didn't stop coming on your own way.

ps 2 : actually i'm not really a fan of the phd comics, but sometimes it gave annoying truth, which i hated to admit, but however was damn true, just like what this movie said :

PILED HIGHER and DEEPER

"because i live in a world full of prerequisite"

dance.

(i thought)

some places are just enough to be seen through magazines, or books, or internet

some others are, no matter how, must be seen in real

some places like San Francisco and New York City 

and maybe London and Stockholm and Prague and Amsterdam and Santorini and Jerusalem

(let me change my mind, later)

"if it's realistic, then it is not a dream, i suppose"

the dancer

I love this composition. It reminds me a lot of the atmosphere of two my favorite cities : Yogyakarta and Bali. Can't wait to have my summer break this year in Ubud.

28 #25

new york city. from James Ogle on Vimeo.

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it's for more than the fifth avenue

.

it's for more than the big design consultant i wish to apply to

.

it's for more than the headquarter of my dream place to be

.

one day i'll put this stunning city onto my big world map board

and one day means the perfect time only me know

28 #17

To forgive and to forget, are total different matters.


Choose, at the very least, one.




p.s. : If at some cases it must be the latter, then please not to do it as an escape.

28 #16

...and what is life without any risk at all?
But, please, be sure not to be mistaken between taking risk and being simply super stupid to the maximum!


Remember, if not a crime, suicide is a sin. A big one. The biggest one.

28 #13

“Books are for people who wish they were somewhere else.”

—	Mark Twain

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And somewhere here means both space and time.

28 #12

Sayang sekali, hari Sabtu 29 Maret 2011 kemarin saya melewatkan fenomena supermoon.
Padahal saya setengah berharap bisa berpose di bawahnya sambil berkata,

"dengan kekuatan bulan, akan kucari kau ke ujung dunia".

*pret*

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Semoga delapanbelas tahun lagi saya bisa melihat sang sailormoon, ehm, maksudnya supermoon, 

dari halaman belakang rumah kami, ehm, rumah saya dan rumahnya maksudnya.

28 #11

“..., city parks, road networks, stream corridors, and house lots are small objects that are typically numerous and widespread accross the urban region. Each has a range of spatial attributes which represent useful handles for planning and design options. More importantly, wise solutions, when multiplied by the hundreds or thousands, are likely to have a major cumulative beneficial effect on the urban region as a whole.” 

(Forman, 2008)

. . .

"Excellence is the gradual result of always striving to do better."

(Pat Riley)

"I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection. 

Excellence, I can reach for; perfection is God's business."

(Michael J. Fox) 

 . . . . . . .

Self affirmation : 

Please get back on track and do your THESIS!!! !@#$%^&*()_+~{}|:"<>? 

By your 28, you should be on your halfway already!!! >_<"#

i am an underdog. yes. now, should you see if the underdog gets stubborn, as always.

and yes, again. i do have a desire of becoming a leader one day, not a boss though. so a little "you're so bossy!!" here and there would not ever beat me.

. . .
if dreaming means you'll be holding a consequence to pursue it, in any possible ways,
then,
interacting, as part of social role, means you'll be holding a consequence of once in a while being treated not in the way you think you should be treated.

lesson learnt, anyway, is that : the more logic one is, the more irrational they become. period.
me is one good example ;)