18.6.13

[journal] High High

June, 15th 2013 marked as one of memorable Saturday for me. It was my first (ever!) concert experience : G-Dragon's 1st World Tour One of A Kind (OOAK) Concert in MEIS, Jakarta.  

At first I hesitated to go. I LOVE BIGBANG is one fact no doubt about, but to go to a concert of one of its member's solo act seem to be a little bit too much for me (well, except for Taeyang I suppose *eh*). However, later I decided to go due to some feeling I had when suddenly remember my-sitting-in-the-corner-crownstick and that annoying itchy feeling of regret for not going the Bigbang's 1st Alive Tour Concert last year. 

So I got the ticket. Waiting excitedly. And then suddenly there was this drama of which I almost had to have an overtime on that very Saturday, however in the end I managed to finish all my task (read : two project reports) just in time (read : one exact hour before my travel departed to Jakarta). I was even amazed of my own ability (yes i'm bragging, once in a life, please), for being able not not sleep at all at that very night before the concert. For the sake of attending the concert peacefully without any unfinished obligations. So then, I went to Jakarta, couldn't get some sleep while traveling, spent almost four hour to reach Jakarta. In short, I lost all of my energy. I feel less excited by the time I arrived at the concert venue, and actually worried what if the show wouldn't come out as great as I was always expecting. What if the price didn't paid off. What if something went wrong technically. What if I end up regretting coming here. 

A ticket for the middle tribune area. Next time I'd make sure I'll be able to get the VIP section ;)


Finally it's time to get into the stadium. Finding my seat, waiting for the time the show to start while watching GD's music videos on the screens besides the stage (with sleepy eyes I must say). So that's "That XX" clip. That's "Crayon". That's "Michi GO". And the lights went off. The music kept playing. The big white screen covering the main stage fell down. And that's...that's...that's G-DRAGON!!! I knew the show has started. 

I scream, out loud. I jumped. I forgot I haven't slept at all the night before. But what to care, it's Kwon Jiyong at that stage right in front of my eyes!

The crown stick on use. One thing I weirdly insisted to have soon after I knew I won't make it to Bigbang's Alive Tour Concert in Jakarta, so that one day I got reason to go to one of their future concert.

The concert flow was perfect. The set list order was arranged not for nothing. Opened with his newest single, Michi GO, followed by Heartbreaker, One of A Kind, Light It Up (with special visual appearance of Tablo, I don't get the technology though, which seem so real I almost freaked out "oh my, it's Tablo!"), and The Leader (also with the same special visual appearance, this time of CL). Those were just right songs to brought the mood high! 

And then break. 

At the next session, the mood was calmer with the set of his slower songs. Started with Butterfly (which was my most favorite stage that night), followed by Missing You, That XX, Without You, and Today (which brought back the higher mood). And then another break. Continued with another upbeat set list, started with A Boy, continued with Knock Out (and there came T.O.P.), High High (oughhh...with this I could cross one of my wish list off : to see this song's live performance, happiness level : high high), Turn It Up (which is actually TOP's solo song, and much later I just realized how lucky Indonesian VIPs were to see this performance since the last time he performed it was in 2010 if I'm not mistaken), and This Love. 

Intermezzo : because of attending this concert with TOP as the guest star, I finally understand why those ladies were so crazy over him. Well, his deep voice while both singing and rapping, gaze, and moves, were all equally super strong and sexy. No worries Ladies, to me still YB is the one and only *super biased fan-girl mode* ;) I used to felt so upset when knowing that TOP will be the guest star for concert it Jakarta. I've always wished it would be YB. But seeing the performance, well, that night TOP was indeed the perfect guest to be there. 

Back to the show, here's another set list. The last session, started with 1 Year Station, followed by Gossip Man (okay, I admit I forgot whether this song was actually concluded in the show or not >.< I just got some mixed feeling that I heard this song was performed), Obsession, She's Gone and Crayon. 

And GD said good bye. And of course we all wanted more. And of course he came back to stage ;)

So for encore we got Breathe, Bad Boy, and Crayon remixed with Fantastic Baby (as performed in MAMA 2012, Hongkong). In Fantastic Baby, TOP joined GD again as his last performance as a guest star. And finally GD really ended his show with another Michi Go and introduction to his team, the band and the dancers. And the show really came to an end. The lights went on with an empty stage.



And yes, it was GREAT! 
As in G R E A T ! ! !

My first concert. My first party. My first hangover.
My full bow for you, thank you G-DRAGON, for making it so memorable :
how you communicate to us with perfect set-list, beautiful stage with amazing digital visual art, superb dances, and that stable voice (to note you did all the song live!).
You really are wonderful (oh I know this not even the best word to describe), dear leader :)


ps 1. : I'm sorry if there're mistakes in the set list, since I actually always almost got carried away with the performances during the show that I was not being able to take note of the actual song list.

ps 2. : Earlier expectation? This show definitely goes beyond it. Period.

16.6.13

[Juni] Siang.

tidak pernah ada kata kesiangan dalam menyambut pagi.
jika kamu bangun, dan dia tidak ada
tunggu saja sebentar. mungkin sudah waktunya berkeliling menyapa tetangga

jika sebentar menjadi terlalu lama, berilah tunggu sedikit sebentar lagi.
siapa tahu kali ini justru kamu menjadi yang pertama menyapanya.
sungguhpun tidak ada kata kesiangan baginya, dalam kesetiaan perputarannya.


11.6.13

[Juni] Tengah malam.

mungkin begini tengah malam memperkenalkan
dirinya pada juni :
aku adalah di mana hati-hati berteriak paling kencang,
juga di mana para pemiliknya tertidur paling lelap.

[Juni] Bangku kayu.

bangku kayu kehujanan di sudut taman,
setia kokoh tak berpayung
menunggu cerita menutur diri, bukan semata jadi terukir

seperti juni yang basah kehujanan,
bersabar mencapai oktober
menunggu tempat pulang, musim yang milik hujan.

4.6.13

[Juni] Akhir pekan.

pada awalnya, jalan pulang selalu ada di sana
semua hanya tinggal "ingin lewat jalan mana?"

pada akhirnya, jalan pulang selalu bergeming
semua hanya tinggal "kamu mau pulang?"

[Juni] Langit merah.

fasa, ataupun jeda
langit merah, ia indah karena ketakabadiannya.
mengelus hati, menutup mata :
selamat tinggal yang diburu selamat tiba.

kembali di rumah, kembali pada hari, kembali dalam hati.

1.6.13

[catatan] Juni.

Jika ada bulan yang kedatangannya hampir bisa dipastikan membuat saya tersenyum senang, maka ialah bulan Juni. Tanpa mengurangi rasa syukur bahwa saya dilahirkan di bulan April, bulan Juni bagaimanapun nyatanya memiliki tempat istimewa di hati saya.

Tidak ada alasan khusus sebenarnya. Saya hanya tidak bisa tidak mengumpamakan bulan Juni dengan hal-hal merah jambu dan biru langit. Misalnya saja : Juni adalah hujan, dan lalu puisi. Juni adalah matahari, dan nantinya prosa. Juni adalah pertemuan, yang berbayang perpisahan. Juni adalah perjalanan, petualangan mencari jalan pulang. Juni adalah di mana mimpi-mimpi mekar sempurna atau layu sejadinya. Juni adalah di mana tawar-menawar antara harapan dan kesedihan mencapai titik jenuh. Juni adalah pilihan antara berdamai atau menutup hati. Juni adalah waktunya mengambil hari untuk menepi dan membersihkan jejak tertinggal sebisanya.

Juni adalah puisi tersendiri. Seperti keindahan yang dilantun oleh Sapardi.

Mungkin ia tahu, Juni adalah saatnya menjadi sedikit lebih manusiawi. Sejenak melonggarkan demi cinta. Ceritanya pura-pura lupa waktu, lalu peta seakan-akan terserahkan pada angin.

Juni, dengan hujan mengisahkan jeda, dengan matahari merekam perhentian.

31.5.13

[notes] you are...

(no)
i should stop define you.
you're just off all definitions. wordless.

and my life is just as off as those other definitions could be.
.


ps : oh nooo I'm becoming more obsessed with this band >.<

28.5.13

fiksi, semacam racikan.

semacam racikan untuk menuturmu :
1. mengawang delusi
2. mengais rasa
3. mengubur logika
4. melapis masa
5. meresap semesta

untung kamu adalah fiksi
yang tidak pernah terlepas.

27.5.13

"The whitest lie of all...

... could be to lie like an index print photographs. Put bright smiles on every opened windows, those people could have said they were fake, or not, yet could never denied them. Smiles those would erase further suspicions towards any details meant to hide."

- yes i miss analog photography, so much i couldn't move back, so little i instead chose to stay within these convenience digital age (of which i must say : the age where white lies exist no more) -